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Sometimes I look at myself and debate whether or not I do the things I do for the reasons that I claim. I am really talking about my situation in Econ 334. I currently have a D in the class and I need a 75 percent to pass the class.

I fucked up on half of the assignments and just didn't care . . .but the more I think about it and the more I realized how easy the test seemed when I studied, if I do bad to add excitement to my everyday life. I usually can't stand studying but today when I studied all day I had no problem with it . . .at points it even seemed fun

So myself hypothesis is that I purposely didn't do well enough in the class so that it was more exciting to have to do well . . .I mean look at how perfect it ended up . . .needing a 75 percent is not that unreasonable and is very attainable.

I dunno I might just be giving myself credit for being LAZY . . .anyway

The test went well I hope and all I can do now is hope I did as well as I prepared . . .

Anyway

I have to type a 7 page research paper for Nazi of a teacher and study my ass off for an accounting final

I am so done with school and can't wait for it to be over

that is all . . .

Is it unreasonable to not like someone because they don't have any respect for you and you cannot trust them?

drum roll please . . .

NO

I feel and I am sure many would have to agree that the reason mentioned above is a great reason to not like someone and not want to be around them

BACKGROUND STORY:

I don't like my good friends younger brother (he is turning 19 and I am 20) so not that much younger because he tried to hook up with my once girlfriend while we were still together and then tried to start a fight with me for getting pissed . . .and for that reason and a few other ones . . .I don't like him

ANYWAY

That is the end of that story

Tonight was fun all my old friends (We call ourselves the OG's "Original Gangsters") smoked some weed, went to Starbucks and chained smoked some cigs then smoke some more weed and more cigarettes on the way to a hookah bar where we smoked some more cigarettes and hookah, ate some hummus and just talked about the good old days . . .good times

that is all . . .

We got stoned and watched Bowling for Columbine . . .

I liked it I thought it was very well put together, even though I HATE Michael Moore, but I really did enjoy this movie and really did make me think a lot about American Society

so I have decided that I am movie to Canada . . .not really but that would be chill, or maybe somewhere in Europe

I dunno but a lot of Americans are fucked up . . .

then . .

on the way to school this morning I was listening to Jamie Jack and Stench (Star 98.7) and they were talking about how people are so afraid of dying . . .but the catch is they are scared about the dumbest shit and actually down concern themselves with the real shit they should be worried about like lung cancer, heart attacks, cancer, stroke, obesity, and all that other medical junk. But instead of being worried about that shit they concern their brains with things like

-shark attacks
-plain crashes
-homicide
-getting struck by lighting
-falling off a ladder

and the list continues with random ass shit . . .

however, I am one of those people, I fear the ocean due to the fact that there is sting rays, jelly fish and sharks

I would have to say that my phobia if any . . .besides heights is poisonous animals, I have this image in my head of having an allergic reaction to a jelly fish or black widow and swelling up turning purple, then blue then white and then dying. . .

I dunno . . .I'm weird

also . . .

I got this bulletin from my myspace from Peta (not a big fan, but they are alright . . .a little extreme for me but they get tons of shit done for animals so props there)

( Foie )

who eats that shit . . .

more info http://getactive.peta.org/campaign/p2gianteagle?c=918


that is all . . .

It is windy as fuck outside . . .

I feel like my house is going to blow half way around the world and land on some witch, and then I will go on a journey with a lion, a tin man, a scarecrow and my dog Buddy . . .

you get the idea

Work was fucking busy today, I had no idea that it was going to be like that . . .I worked 7am till 8pm . . .washed 14 big ass dogs.


Made a fuck load of money though . . .which is always a major plus

Went to Harbor House with my friend after I got off . . .good times . . .got the Veggie Burger and she got the Good Earth sandwich (vegetarian) . . .which I will be getting next time

mmm . . .good

other then that . . nothing much at all happened

I have to get up early . . .AGAIN . . .my friend is coming over to take pictures of me for her photo class . . .it will be fun but still sleeping some time past 7am would be nice.

After the shoot I or we are going to get coffee from my friends work, and then off I must go to wash more and more and more and more dogs . . .

It is busy tomorrow . . .already when I left I already had 5 dogs scheduled which for a Sunday is a good number . . .on Sundays most people call and then ask if they can come down in 15 minutes . . .which is ANNOYING





that is all . . .

Why is it then when I want and need to sleep I can't . . .but the days I don't need to get up early I fall fast asleep and take a trip to Narnia or some other location there of . . .

Just a thought

that is all . .

This time of year can get on its knees and blow me . . .it is the start of final time at school. I have 3 research papers, and 2 huge exams. I am overwhelmed.

I need to get a A on one of the test just to pass the fucking class, which is ridiculous. I don't really understand the subject matter not because I don't try but economics doesn't stick in my brain . . .hence the reason that I am a marketing major . . .

I just got a call from my ex girlfriend and I guess my brothers dumb fucking retard of a girlfriend told her that I took some girl from work to the dog beach

1) this girl has a boyfriend . . .it was nothing
2) the dog beach is me and Cassie's spot
3) I lied and told Cassie that we never hung out, only talked on AIM

I'm a fucking stupid . . .I should of told her from day one the truth as she has told me . . .but I couldn't

I didn't want to hurt her . . .I figured I would tell her when things were better between us but I guess that chance goes out the window

She has always told me everything . . .I MEAN everything but I fucked that shit up

I feel like a total ass . . .she is disappointed in me

PEOPLE NEED TO SHUT THEIR MOUTHS . . .and let me fucking tell people when I want to tell them

FUCK ME AND THE HORSE I ROAD IN ON

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

I'm lost
I don't know what to do
I'm scared
I fucked up

I really did mean well . . .despite the way it sounds

I really don't need this right now . . .and neither does she

and things were going so FUCKING WELL

Why?

that is all . . .

My life has been fucking crazy lately, and it is mostly because of me . . .I have gone out 10 days in a row.

I have been smoking more weed and more cigarettes then I should, and getting less sleep then I can possibly live without, drinking more caffeine then humanly possible.

I work 32 hours a week, go to school full time and try to maintain a social life with three different crowds it gets exhausting, not to say that I am not having fun, but I let my grades slip . . .which . . .at my house is not allowed.

My father basically just got done telling me how I have made some horrible decisions and how I look like shit, and have been irresponsible

Which for the record is a lie
-yes i did drop 20 pounds (165 to 145) when we broke up, but its coming back
-I was already smoking long before that so he cant blame the break up on that
-My grades slipped because I failed 2 test right after the break up (my fault)

He made it seem like I was a meth addict, and he has no idea I smoke weed like a do so he can't use that in his arguments

I have a next week off school BUT I work 6 days next week which blows . . .


I NEED TO SLOW DOWN . . .

today I had a test and I drove myself so crazy because of it I threw up in the parking lot

WHO DOES THAT

ME

beside that . . .I am having this new desire to only listen pop club music . . .I dunno what has gotten into me

that is all . . .

Today my ex and I went on a "date" . . .We went and watched Saw III in the theaters, stoned of course.

I don't know why I have an obsession with theaters, every time I'm in there I feel like I have taken a trip to another dimension, it is amazing, but when I go there stoned it just makes it so much more thrilling.

There coming out with a Hostel 2, it is going to be the most gruesome torturous movie ever, but that will not make it any better.

I have to register for classes on Monday and I'm having a huge problem because I have 1 more GE left, and I would take more business classes but I can't because I have one last key course left, so now I have to either take 2 classes and get insurance, or I have to take 2 classes that are just to make me a full time student so I am still covered by my parents.

that is all . . .

I had a great time . . .

booze, bud, and buddies . . .what else could you ask for?



( more fun )

that is all . . .

Happy Halloween everybody

be safe
dont drink or drive
and have fun


I WANT TO SEE TONS OF PICTURES ON EVERYONE'S JOURNAL'S


I'm in the school computer lab . . .its so calm and quite, I HATE IT

that is all . . .

Went to Shorehouse tonight . . .it was fun

Besides the fact that our waiter
1) messed up my order
2) Sounded like Tony Perkins (Ben Stiller's character in the movie Heavy Weights) assistant Lars . . .and he used the phrase "do it to it" which was also in that movie.

I took an Accounting test today . . .it was hard but I think I did better then I feel I did . . .I dunno, I just want to get my C and move on . . .I HATE ACCOUNTING

I had one of the groomers shave a flower and a heart in Sadie (my other pug) now with Buddy's stars and her two shapes they look cute.

I love dogs . . .I much more a dog person then a cat person, though I do enjoy all pets, dogs are on the top of my list hence the reason I love my job.

I didn't get starbucks today so my cravings are high right now

I feel like watching the movie Superstar

that is all . . .

I saw The Prestige and The Grudge 2

The Prestige I give a B and The Grudge 2 I give a C-

Wait to rent The Grudge 2, and if you already saw the movies that you wanted to see real bad and can't decide then see The Prestige

But honestly the best part of the movie is the previews, and I got to see some good ones, real good ones.

I can't wait

that is all . . .

I hate waiting for the bathroom while somebody else takes a shower

Reason #1
They are ruining my routine

Reason #2
There bacteria is getting all over the shower

Reason #3
I enjoy stepping on the cold shower floor, but they make it all warm

Reason #4
They are using all the hot water

Reason #5
I want to shower NOW

To all those . . .who read this

Please reply to this comment answer the following questions

Pepsi or Coke?

Do you smoke?

Do you drink?

Favorite Type of Food?

In school?

Favorite Movie?

Favorite Song?

My Answers

Coke (cherry to be exact)

Cigarettes & Weed

On occasion

Italian & Vegetarian Chinese/Thai Food

CSUF

Eternal Sunshine, LOTR Trilogy, X-men Trilogy

Currently Psycho Killer . . .The Talking Heads

I have no idea where I'm going . . .

I don't know if times of depression makes you become more addictive to things but lately, my body has been craving nicotine and caffeine, throw in a little THC and there you have what my diet consist of.

Everyone has been telling me that I look like shit . . .and I need to put weight on but whatever . . .I eat, oh do I eat, right now I don't feel like concerning myself with why weight keeps dropping.

Someone mentioned to me that in times of extreme depression and/or stress, your body will drop weight, due to increased mental activity . . .is that true? fuck if I know.

I love cigarettes. . .

Work was shitty as fucking hell today . . .ever dog was acting if it had been to purgatory and back . . .shit . . .not one dog was well behaved

I work again . . .today (Sunday) at 10:30am till 7pm (sucks)

The only positive today was that I got a $20 tip

. . .that is all

Work was slow . . .one of the groomers attempted to shave a star in my leg . . .but it didn't turn out . . .now it kind of looks like a four leaf clover who has down syndrome.

I love my job and the people there.

I will be sad when the time comes for me to get a career.

I got the day after Halloween either off, or a late shift so that way I can get plastered.

Speaking of plastered, my work friends are throwing a part and we are all going to get plastered together, good times . . .indeed

My OCD is getting worse lately, it may be all the stress and shit, but things that never really had bugged "it" now are, but that is common.

Am I really OCD . . .yes . . .severe . . .no . . .diagnosed . . .no . . .hard to explain . . .yes

Nerd Thoughts
Sims 2 Pets Expansion Pack came out yesterday . . .I WANT IT
Get a cable for the interent at school . . .I NEED IT
Normal Thoughts continued . . .


I need a haircut . . .

but I'm growing it out for my Halloween costume

I'm being Ace Ventura . . .


that is all . . .

I miss my girlfriend (well now ex)

I need her . . .for some weird reason, I have the feeling that she is ready to move on past the sadness and get with other guys, and I understand that is what people do when they breakup but for . . .I don't think 2 or 3 weeks is long enough time to get over a guy that you were with for 4 years.

I mean no way could I get with a girl right now . . .I mean honestly, 2 weeks, going on 3 on Monday.

Not enough time . . .unless she really never loved me which in no way is that possible unless she was the greatest actress the world has ever seen, I feel stupid for even writing such ridiculous things

SPECULATION KILLS . . .

. . .NO PROOF OR EVIDENCE OF SHIT

MY BRAIN JUST GOES CRAZY

I am psycho . . .Je'sus Christo thinks so too


I miss and love her so my brain doesn't know what to do.


that is all . . .

I woke up this morning and for some reason . . .I had this over powering sensation to chain smoke . . .I usually smoke about 3-4 cigarettes a day . . .today I smoked 10


Which to some is not a lot but for me it is . . .

My lungs may hurt tomorrow, but whatever, I enjoyed it at the time.

I got a Carmel Iced with Hazelnut, with 4 shots of espresso, so I'm feeling really awake, but tired and sluggish at the same time . . .if that makes sense.

Mentally, I'm gone, but physically I'm awake.

I guess that is how you could put it . . .

School was lame today as always, only one of my classes actually did anything, one I didn't go to, the other he passed out papers and sent us on our way.

TUESDAY: I have a final in Humanities
THURSDAY: I have to go to Accounting I haven't been in a week


that is all . . .

( Random )


that is all . . .

I bought 5 DVDs in the past 2 days, and therefore forcing me to get a new DVD rack. I was glad though because I really wanted one this one can hold over 100.

MOVIES ARE MY LIFE

(  . . .list of movies )


I have not been this stoned in a long time . . .and tonight I finally am, I think the last time was almost a week ago, but lately I have been smoking cigarettes to "relax my cries" . . .quote from Culture Club

I was talking to another stoned individual and she created the greatest stoner word in the history of words

She was talking about a new house . . . and in an attempt to say new house she said
"nouhsey" . . .if you think about it the logic is all there.

RUMOR HAS IT . . .there is a movie made between the Pitch Black and The Chronicles of Riddick, that would make it a trilogy

Anyone validate or destroy this rumor?

that is all . . .